it makes me easier to read between the lines for me.. :D
this time, i'm using yellow colour for my words because i afraid readers would feel my blogs boring with green all the time. *sob sob :'(
well3...back to Evangelica's secret.. yeah.. i was too stupid. or perhaps i should say i AM too stupid. talking about secret, there's nobody don't have any little secret. since we called it SECRET, i know it is certain information that nobody should know else than certain people.. or, if i was wrong, it must be in this definition, not open or public; kept private or not revealed.
but, her secret should be revealed to me earlier.. as the time kept passing by, as the time kept flowing without leaving any Goodbye, 8 months in a relationship with her felt like as if i don't have to find another girl in my whole life. even though we're just dating through handphones for most of the times, even though i only could meet her on my holidays, i could feel her heart never tried to be unfaithful towards me. and yeah, even though she looked for another guy, i wouldn't be surprised. i'm not charming after all.
Gawai holidays, the moment i'd never expected somethings unpleasant to be happened.. as we all know, Gawai, sessions for iban's to enjoy themselves so much. but, i still remembered. i thanked God for been able to meet her at MJC at night before i went back to Sibu. i brought her to have drinks together at restaurant so that i could treasure those worthy moments. somethings odd about her.....
i was having coffee and hers' vanilla float. we talked so much, i really love the way she smiled to me.. oh wait, somethings wrong here.. i tried to keep smiling and talk back to her but my brain, my head, my minds, and lastly my heart, felt that she didn't looks like the last time i met her. what's wrong.. what happened.. she seemed like having weight loss for no reason.. i also found that she was having tiny rashes under her skins.. for the worst.. i realized that she might be having hair loss..
how did it possible for me to know what differs in her even though i stayed in full-boarding school? because i captured how she looked like when we were met for the first time.. its just same as we still remembered how our parents looks like since we love them all.. was i dreaming at that time? no, not at all.. all what happened to me was just i lost. i have no clue, no idea, stunted as if i was confused to death. yeah, i was. hah....lets just give me space to calm down myself for while.. i'll just let readers think what might be happened to her..
